Saturday, October 27, 2007

no life

this is a rant post.
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i feel so pek chek now.
my blog is soooo boring with no pictures.
i eat so much i am gaining 1kg every month or maybe more.
my projects are so overwhelming tt i feel sad.
i sleep too much tt i feel guilty.
i wan to watch movie but i can't coz laogong got quiz next week.
i read pple's blog and i know they also have alot of things due.
i'm supposed to feel better coz i am not alone,
but i feel even more stressed, like others stress are pumped into me.
i think i am going crazy.
i dun like to worry so much about my grades.
i think i stressed lijun too much about 411.
which although i finished in good time,
despite the efforts put into it,
i have no good feelings about.
i have no idea what clare wants.
the 40% is as well forsaken.
i spent so much time on the proj,
and reading the textbook.
but i still dunno what clare wants.
i worry about my gpa,
but i dunno how to pull it up.
i skip lessons all the time,
but i have no idea how to catch up.
i feel thankful i am escaping to china next sem.
but i dunno how i can face my workload in my final yr,
with 6 modules per sem,
and out of which 5 will be core modules,
coz i want to graduate in time,
instead of wasting 6k in another sem.
speaking of which,
i have yet to know the results of my scholarship interview;
if i fail that i got to go for another interview.
which just adds up to the stress level.
the last project submission is due on the 16th;
and my 1st papers on 19th.
i really really really dunno what to do with my life right now,
but the do the projs projs and more projs.
and praying hard tt the profs would be nice,
and give me a good grade,
so my gpa would be pulled way above what it is now.

i am so looking forward to dec.
genting with laogong & family 14th - 16th dec.
taiwan with laogong end of dec (tbc)
i miss chole and carol and all the taiwanese.
and cheng will be flying down from usa also.

PROJECTS & EXAMS BE OVER SOON!
and i still have mixed feelings about china.

=( this is a sad post.

Posted by jiawen at 7:32:00 PM