Friday, August 31, 2007
cruise!!!
i think i let emotions got the better of me today.
which is bad. really.
but i din do anything wrong & everything.
its just some projects blue.
i think i should switch back to the slackers mentality,
to fit my clique better.
=p
but i feel its kind of wasted though.
i missed 09 gathering due to the proj;
which we din manage to do much.
but i was the one with wkend plans.
oxymoronic.
read from lionel's blog tt they got back state taxes.
like whyyyy i never get back?!
i din even know its possible. =(
100 bucks sing leh!!!
going on cruise tmr!
yay-ness!
but school works' really stressing me up.
like so many things to do,
yet not so many things to do.
also dunno why.
the asian people of old faithful snowlodge room agents!
with our er lao ban, barry :)
vegas coca-cola factory.
wingfai, laogong & me!
vegas m&m factory.
mai siao siao.
i'm f1 racer ok!
night views in vegas.
paris & eiffel tower!
chyi has seen the real one right?
is it beautiful??
laogong & me.
on the escalator to bellagio.
monkey looking me.
walking back from shopping.
it was scorching hot lah!
iride trolley in orlando
disneyworld, magic kingdom.
princesses castle behind piggy us!
but i din do anything wrong & everything.
its just some projects blue.
i think i should switch back to the slackers mentality,
to fit my clique better.
=p
but i feel its kind of wasted though.
i missed 09 gathering due to the proj;
which we din manage to do much.
but i was the one with wkend plans.
oxymoronic.
read from lionel's blog tt they got back state taxes.
like whyyyy i never get back?!
i din even know its possible. =(
100 bucks sing leh!!!
going on cruise tmr!
yay-ness!
but school works' really stressing me up.
like so many things to do,
yet not so many things to do.
also dunno why.
the asian people of old faithful snowlodge room agents!with our er lao ban, barry :)
vegas coca-cola factory.wingfai, laogong & me!
vegas m&m factory.mai siao siao.
i'm f1 racer ok!
night views in vegas.paris & eiffel tower!
chyi has seen the real one right?
is it beautiful??
laogong & me.on the escalator to bellagio.
monkey looking me.walking back from shopping.
it was scorching hot lah!
iride trolley in orlando
disneyworld, magic kingdom.princesses castle behind piggy us!
OOOs.....
iride was like our main transportation in florida.thanks to tips from xiangwen,
we got to ride it at a quarter!
(instead of the 1 buck tourists pay. hehe.)
i am really missing those days...
chloe, claire, carol~
i wan to visit u guys over in taiwan!
cheese, blimer, barry & everyone else,
i wan u guys to visit us in singapore!
oh man..
chloe, claire, carol~
i wan to visit u guys over in taiwan!
cheese, blimer, barry & everyone else,
i wan u guys to visit us in singapore!
oh man..
Posted by jiawen at 1:13:00 AM
Monday, August 27, 2007
surprise!
i think my mommy heard me,in her dreams or smthing since she doesn't read blogs.
she arranged for cruise this weekend!
it really made my day when i heard this news.
yay!
ah ni, suddenly i feel happening.
hiak hiak hiak.
ok i'm crazy. haha.
german was canceled this wk.
due to emergency leave of our tutor.
hope everything's going well for him.
but that also means we'll be trying to catch up like shit,
when lesson resumes next week.
=(
its officially week 4.
starting to feel the heat,
coz everyone seems to be so up to date in their studies.
in their readings.
in everything actually.
and i am so terrified of my driving instructor now.
he's really fierce for every single mistake i make.
and i mean EVERY.
the last lesson he made me cry.
embarrassing.
hoping to quickly pass my TP once & for all.
bathing, social lab project & another social lab project.
Posted by jiawen at 9:13:00 PM
Saturday, August 25, 2007
feeling better.
the down side of the moodswing was really horrible.i'm glad its over,
but i certainly hope it wouldn't come back next wk or smthing.
the feeling was undescribable.
everything felt hopeless.
but at least i could still smile & everything now.
totally lagging in sch work now,
that i wonder how laogong got his determination to study.
he's on time for every thing,
re-doing his tutorials,
and can't wait to get his textbooks to mug hard.
LOL~
i guess the 88 batch must have an effect on him afterall.
almost got my motorola v3 red today.
but the internal memory was too little.
and its non expandable.
e.g it can only keep 30 sms-es?!
so whats the camera there for?
no space to store photos what.
also good.
can save up my money. =p
Posted by jiawen at 8:21:00 PM
Friday, August 24, 2007
its less den a mth...
and now all i want to do is fly back to usa.back to travel & slack.
with loads of money & nothing to worry bout.
to shop & shop & shop.
to get away from my freaking horrible i dunno what mood.
how did things change so much in just 23 days?
Posted by jiawen at 1:04:00 AM
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
emo-fied
in a very jia-lat mood today.thats already an understatement.
& i dunno why i feel this way.
okay, maybe i do.
i just need to sort out my feelings.
*kelda taught me a really impt thing. i shld really learn it. no matter how difficult it is. no matter how much i detest it. no matter how much it isn't me. since he isn't going to be on my side bout this matter. not now, not ever. in some ways, i feel that i have already lost something dear. some feelings once gone i dunno how it will come back. i guess insecurities can really create havoc in my life. its getting really bad. i hate remembering how badly i was gasping for breath during the lap back. i was afraid. afraid of drowning in the middle of the pool. gasping so badly for breath. so humiliating. damn the flu. damn the flu. damn the flu. what was i even doing in the water. so totally random. i dread the moodswings. i want my life back in control. back in control.
Posted by jiawen at 2:20:00 AM
Saturday, August 18, 2007
happening?! hardly. (continued)
so much for being happening huh.in the end,
menses came on thurs.
though i dropped stats,
i went back for clinical psy.
& i left early coz of
it was a 3 hr seminar,
and surprisingly,
interesting. hehe.
well. it goes w/o saying,
that i din go bowling.
& also for volleyball yest.
but instead, watched 881 with laogong, minz&xiang n auntie.
din go bai bai or kampong chaichee either.
collected our work & travel cert from speedwing.
they have a half a year working thing in new zealand!
can go up to 3 yrs after graduation.
sounds cool right..
haha.
& i slept in laogong hse for the entire day.
if i din know better.
i wld start thinking,
am i getting into depression.
coz chronic tiredness is one of the symptoms,
of depression.
but thats only one symptom.
so i am safe.
=)
oh well.
today isn't THAT unproductive i guess.
went chomp chomp w auntie & laogong;
for a second dinner.
yummy yummylicious food!
got bbq chick wing, hao jian, hokkien mee, satay beehoon, cha chao kway.
but i am growing fat again.
dreads.
headed back to khatib mac.
for a midnight mugging session,
w sis & laogong.
third dinner/supper there.
shared 2 mcnuggets student meal b/w the 3 of us.
the oils are dripping alr.
FAT!
i am stuck at the readings for social lab.
its too technical.
i don't like it.
continuing it tmr.
5 pages left only!
p.s my nano was lost on the plane to usa,
so now my zen micro is up & running again!
hehehe. misses.
Posted by jiawen at 7:51:00 PM
Thursday, August 16, 2007
zzz
caught rush hour 3 just now,with laogong & sis.
it was really funny.
even the NGs at the end of the movie.
haha.
went for the lifeguards welcome tea too.
& most likely bowling will be reserved for next sem,
or the next academic year.
joining the lifeguards course,
for 200 bucks.
there goes the gst offset package.
boohoo~
trainings every mon & wed.
7.30 to 10 plus.
so it would be ending german lessons at 7, 7.10.
den trainings.
*hopefully that wld signify a better figure~ muahaha.
**seeing them swim just now, makes me miss swimming way too much. :(
anyway its not that we are fickle minded or anything;
we really intended to choose bowling & lifeguards de.
but their timings clash.
(bowling's on every wednesday evening)
& i dun think i can handle so many things.
not superwoman. old liao.
oh btw need to mention some good news!
laogong & i managed to get e same german slots.
yay-ness!
today's german lesson was bad,
in the sense that our teacher was babbling in german.
ok, speaking in german thru out.
to force us to speak in german too.
& since it was our first lesson with him,
we were like HUH?!
not tt we were not prepared beforehand,
we met a student who told us how he was like.
but it was bad-fun, bad yet fun.
if u get what i mean. =p
& i have decided to drop the psy stats course.
mainly becoz the lect notes reminds me eerie-ly of econometrics.
my worst ever grade in uni.
that stupid C+. oh dun worry, a couple of B-s run close behind. BOO.
& i dun think i can cope with 23 AUs.
dun really want to give myself a death sentence so early in the semester.
i wun deny that the timetable got something to do with the decision,
but i guess i do know myself best.
a module i dun like PLUS an early timetable = suicidal.
i wun attend lectures, full stop.
but den again,
one less mod with cwen, jun & hui~
and it means another mod to clear in my final year.
trade-offs. hais.
all the efforts put into the subject matching for INSTEP last night,
could end up to be a waste of precious time,
mainly coz we realised,
those unis have really BAD subject matching.
in the end i checked out the uni i actually got last yr,
plus uni of melbourne,
and the subject matchings were great.
=.="
the only problem is,
my gpa may not be able to get me a place.
coz australia unis are like so qiang shou la!
& laogong's chances are even slimmer.
coz he is a first yr student.
its late,
& i'm tired again.
Posted by jiawen at 3:10:00 AM
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
cursed..... by michelle!
ever since she said that it wld rain everytime i want to go swimming;on that one particular tuition lesson,
it has always came true.
:(
sleep debt always catches up with me.
i am forever like in a dream-like mode.
even a one lect day like today.
i was listening, yet not listening.
wierd feelings.
signing up for INSTEP again.
this time rnd, german speaking countries -
or english speaking.
have not done enough research to conclude yet.
laogong signing up too,
but dunno will he get a space or not.
sometimes i catch myself thinking;
if i am rich.
everything would be so easy.
i can apply for any country,
w/o worries for finances i would need there.
but den again,
i catch myself rebutting;
if i am born rich,
i would be too spoilt to want to go for these things.
coz i can't survive out there w/o my parents support.
or worse,
i wouldn't see the need to go for these things.
so i prefer the way i am.
=p
programs for e rest of this week:
wed - lifeguards tea session, simpsons night/midnight movie (if still showing)
thurs - bowling w minz&xiang and laogong
fri - volleyball w sis, mich, eileen, asther jie jie, alex, zhi wei kor kor & laogong
sat - bai bai, kampong chaichee cc w cwen, jun & lihui? (tentative)
Posted by jiawen at 4:50:00 PM
Monday, August 13, 2007
要笑哦！
只要笑一笑，没有什么东西过不了！-微笑pasta
joining bowling with laogong,
maybe trying out for swimming?
(but i doubt i will, laogong will.)
& trying to squeeze some creative juice;
for ntu creative lab 07.
its a business plan competition.
when i got down to looking at my to-do list,
its still looking good.
prob coz stats & clinical haven started yet.
both lecturers jiat zua.
hehe.
*back to readings, readings & more readings!
oh btw, talking bout reading,
it randomly reminds me of soccer.
watched man u vs reading last night.
9 defenders play by reading.
was it soccer they were playing?!
Posted by jiawen at 9:07:00 AM
Sunday, August 12, 2007
overwhelmed
the feeling of sinking back into reality is bad.really literally bad.
gone are the days of traveling,
the only worries are where to go & what to do.
how to control my shopping & whether shld i earn more money.
all these seem so small compared to the stress felt in sch.
or maybe those aren't stressful at all.
haha.
taking 23 AUs this sem.
& suddenly realised the readings are so much!
with econs both being essay style exams,
psy lab being 3 projs,
with one individual proj which is 40% & i dun even know how to start,
(plus the fact that we have to 'por' the prof, coz the course is totally prof dependent)
they are grading all our projs, presentations etc.
*& we dun really like the prof =(
german is something i am looking forward to,
but kelda keeps telling me its really difficult to score.
but i am not intending to S/U it leh..
advance stats is another mod i am not looking forward to.
more maths. BLAH.
at least clinical i am looking forward to too..
but with clare teaching,
who knows.
and another thing making me really really overwhelmed is....
my tp date is 12th sept.
& i have done so far 12 lessons in driving.
i need at least 8 more lessons to be able to take the driving test,
(at least my instructor told me i can pass in 20 lessons)
but he is fully booked next wk.
so i have not drove for the past 3.5 mths,
and i am only going to start learning again on 20th aug.
& i have forgotten how to park.
both vertical & parallel.
i haven been into circuit before.
and laogong told me not to have such high hopes on passing.
coz i seem to be taking a crash course for this tp.
ARGGHHHHH!!!!!!
thus the solution?
i am going for daily driving lesson from 27th aug onwards till my tp date.
i dun believe i am so lousy.
i refuse to believe that at least.
hrmp.
and the last thing thats making me overwhelmed.
i can't seem to find alot of things that i should have before i leave for usa!
i forgot where i kept my things alr.
i can't slip back into my previous routines for doing things,
coz i dun have those things that i need!
e.g. my cashcard, my driving card, my stationaries, even my own garfield blanket! =(
luckily i found my keys
at least the new sem is beginning.
so everything from school is starting anew.
dun have to worry bout last sem's things.
and its great to meet up with cwen, jun & lihui!!!
glad that we have at least some same mods la,
though its so much less den last sem.
i remember last sem is literally everyday go sch & hm with cwen de lor.
coz 4 mods exact same slot.
oh well.
i still feel overwhelmed.
=(
Posted by jiawen at 6:45:00 PM
Saturday, August 11, 2007
it's over
everything's settled.the past few days has been almost like a dream,
mostly becoz we'ven been able to slp much.
it was a nice gathering with cousins & families,
but as quoted from my sis,
its not a very good way to have a gathering.
also realised that many pple has this 'ban dan' thing bout funerals.
with what some thinks 7 days cannot go pples hse,
to 49 days,
& some even to 100 days.
like HUH?
and some cannot celebrate cny for 3/5 yrs.
i dun think my family's THAT ban dan la.
i feel rather guilty though,
that maybe i prolonged ah gong's suffering.
everyone's like saying he's waiting to see me for the last time,
before going..
its not as if i dunno alright?
the coincidence that ah gong passed away the day after i went to visit him.
alot of things are not predictable.
i signed up for work & travel last yr.
i'm sorry if i made the mistake.
i just dun understand why pple like to point out details to make others guilty.
i was not the only one who was made to feel guilty.
on a brighter note,
the dao shi who did my ah gong's cremation said that,
there were shapes of flowers as ah gong burnt..
that only nice people has this kind of things.
=)
and my da yi dreamt of my ah ma.
she said from now on she will take care of my ah gong for us.
*may my ah gong & ah ma be together happily ever after*
Posted by jiawen at 1:29:00 PM
Monday, August 06, 2007
hiatus
my grandfather passed away.will not be updating till everythings over.
i sincerely hope that he's having a better life after death now.
in a place where theres no
Posted by jiawen at 12:54:00 AM
Thursday, August 02, 2007
home sweet home (:
i can't believe that after being deprived of the internet for ages,i am not able to find things to do online.
thats a question worth thinking about.
maybe the internet is really not that important after all.
(to me at least)
meanwhile,
i am off to a haircut.
my hair looks ridiculous.
contemplating on rebonding it again.
bye.
