Wednesday, September 19, 2007

disappointed

i hate the fact that merely money cld upset me & my mom so much.
i only need a guarantor for the sch loan.
i would be the one returning the loan.
why the hard feelings?

its hard enough trying to find the courage to go for it.
i seriously dun see how i can survive there on my own.
but i wan to be strong, i have to act strong.
or i will never have the chance to go for another exchange.
i also wish tt laogong cld be there with me.
i can't even read maps for goodness sake.
but if i don't go for it,
i know i am missing out a really good learning experience.

all the uncertainties makes it even worse.
who knows if any company will want me anyway.
and the financial burden which will be coming up.
and yadayadayada...

and den comes the spendings for my 21st birthday.
money money money.

sometimes i just wish i was born into a rich family...

Posted by jiawen at 1:00:00 AM