Sunday, August 12, 2007

overwhelmed

the feeling of sinking back into reality is bad.
really literally bad.

gone are the days of traveling,
the only worries are where to go & what to do.
how to control my shopping & whether shld i earn more money.
all these seem so small compared to the stress felt in sch.
or maybe those aren't stressful at all.
haha.

taking 23 AUs this sem.
& suddenly realised the readings are so much!
with econs both being essay style exams,
psy lab being 3 projs,
with one individual proj which is 40% & i dun even know how to start,
(plus the fact that we have to 'por' the prof, coz the course is totally prof dependent)
they are grading all our projs, presentations etc.
*& we dun really like the prof =(
german is something i am looking forward to,
but kelda keeps telling me its really difficult to score.
but i am not intending to S/U it leh..
advance stats is another mod i am not looking forward to.
more maths. BLAH.
at least clinical i am looking forward to too..
but with clare teaching,
who knows.

and another thing making me really really overwhelmed is....
my tp date is 12th sept.
& i have done so far 12 lessons in driving.
i need at least 8 more lessons to be able to take the driving test,
(at least my instructor told me i can pass in 20 lessons)
but he is fully booked next wk.
so i have not drove for the past 3.5 mths,
and i am only going to start learning again on 20th aug.
& i have forgotten how to park.
both vertical & parallel.
i haven been into circuit before.
and laogong told me not to have such high hopes on passing.
coz i seem to be taking a crash course for this tp.
ARGGHHHHH!!!!!!

thus the solution?
i am going for daily driving lesson from 27th aug onwards till my tp date.
i dun believe i am so lousy.
i refuse to believe that at least.
hrmp.

and the last thing thats making me overwhelmed.
i can't seem to find alot of things that i should have before i leave for usa!
i forgot where i kept my things alr.
i can't slip back into my previous routines for doing things,
coz i dun have those things that i need!
e.g. my cashcard, my driving card, my stationaries, even my own garfield blanket! =(
luckily i found my keys

at least the new sem is beginning.
so everything from school is starting anew.
dun have to worry bout last sem's things.

and its great to meet up with cwen, jun & lihui!!!
glad that we have at least some same mods la,
though its so much less den last sem.
i remember last sem is literally everyday go sch & hm with cwen de lor.
coz 4 mods exact same slot.

oh well.
i still feel overwhelmed.
=(

Posted by jiawen at 6:45:00 PM