Saturday, August 11, 2007

it's over

everything's settled.

the past few days has been almost like a dream,
mostly becoz we'ven been able to slp much.
it was a nice gathering with cousins & families,
but as quoted from my sis,
its not a very good way to have a gathering.

also realised that many pple has this 'ban dan' thing bout funerals.
with what some thinks 7 days cannot go pples hse,
to 49 days,
& some even to 100 days.
like HUH?

and some cannot celebrate cny for 3/5 yrs.
i dun think my family's THAT ban dan la.

i feel rather guilty though,
that maybe i prolonged ah gong's suffering.
everyone's like saying he's waiting to see me for the last time,
before going..
its not as if i dunno alright?
the coincidence that ah gong passed away the day after i went to visit him.
alot of things are not predictable.
i signed up for work & travel last yr.
i'm sorry if i made the mistake.

i just dun understand why pple like to point out details to make others guilty.
i was not the only one who was made to feel guilty.

on a brighter note,
the dao shi who did my ah gong's cremation said that,
there were shapes of flowers as ah gong burnt..
that only nice people has this kind of things.
=)

and my da yi dreamt of my ah ma.
she said from now on she will take care of my ah gong for us.

*may my ah gong & ah ma be together happily ever after*

Posted by jiawen at 1:29:00 PM