Wednesday, August 22, 2007

emo-fied

in a very jia-lat mood today.
thats already an understatement.
& i dunno why i feel this way.
okay, maybe i do.
i just need to sort out my feelings.

moodswings

*kelda taught me a really impt thing. i shld really learn it. no matter how difficult it is. no matter how much i detest it. no matter how much it isn't me. since he isn't going to be on my side bout this matter. not now, not ever. in some ways, i feel that i have already lost something dear. some feelings once gone i dunno how it will come back. i guess insecurities can really create havoc in my life. its getting really bad. i hate remembering how badly i was gasping for breath during the lap back. i was afraid. afraid of drowning in the middle of the pool. gasping so badly for breath. so humiliating. damn the flu. damn the flu. damn the flu. what was i even doing in the water. so totally random. i dread the moodswings. i want my life back in control. back in control.

Posted by jiawen at 2:20:00 AM